Tuesday, February 9, 2010


as i lay in bed my mind starts to wander and i began to cry
how long am i supposed to pretend as if everythings alright
i cant be the strong person everyones used to seeing
the person people turn to when their down and out
who do i talk to, whose going to resue me
i feel as if everything around me is crashing
and instead of moving out the way i just stand there
hoping that God grants me the pleasure of meeting him
im tired of feeling pain i want to be loved again
i want that comfront of knowning that i wont be judge
that someone cares enough to think of me first
but what am i thinking that could never be
cause people only think of themselves
so i put on my face and go back to pretending


Saturday, February 6, 2010

Body, Mind, Emotions and Soul

i suppose you think of me as just a pretty face
or mayb just someone with a lovely body.
im more then my physical features.
i have a mind i have soul i have emotions
in which you should attempt to take time to acknowledge.
although compliments of my smile and slanted eyes
are nice and greatly appreciated
i rather you tell me how my mental drives you crazy
how the beauty in my soul glows
how my words makes you insane and how
the thought of the depths of me has you searching for me
if you can have a full conversation with me
without even mentioning my curvaceous body
or the numerous of sexual things you would do to me
then youre chances with me would sky rocket
into the atmosphere passing planets and stars
in the galaxy is where we'll let our beings flow freely
and then thats whn you can get to me physically.


Play .. Fast Forward .. Rewind .... Stop

opening credits of past relationships.
Starring You and Featuring Me

i see you in the crowd and a smile comes across my face
trying to compose myself as my heart starts to beat fastyou greet me with a smile and a hug, my heart sanks,
the butterflies in my stomach start to flutter
we converse and acted as if we dont rather be alone somewhere else.
[Fast Forward]
kissing you as you pin me against the wall
wrapping my legs around you, you pick me up and carry me to the bed
placing me down i began to undress myself than you
pressing my warm lips against your cold body
laughing at dinner with friends, timidly looking at each other
hoping no one notices that we're having this moment
sercetly texting each other sweet things
snapping back into conversations as if we've never left
waking up to the sun rays on my face
rolling over and realizing youre laying next to me
smiling from the flashbacks of the night before
moving towards you slightly waking you
you smurk and put your arms around me
is this just a movie or our reality
have i exchanged the characters with you and me
or is this really what our life could be
whether a movie or reality
im longing to see how it ends.


Friday, February 5, 2010

Love, No Like Letter

i could say i love you bt most dont know what it means and although ive can say ive truely experienced it
i can also say its nothing to play with.
bt i can say i like you with no doubt
something not only myself but others around us see
fighting these feelings because..well i got to make sure you like me too
and now that i see that you do. i want to stay here for awhile
rewind and fast forward our likings til we possibly cant like anymore
then even after still play around with the liking factor
cause again love isnt something to take lightly
and well that the last thing i want to do with you
not saying i dont want to love you cause who knows maybe one day
but not today. tomorrw or many tomorrows after
i like our playful manner, our ability to know our roles in each others life
and be around for that purpose.
i just want to stay in liking yu forever
this is my Love, no this is my Like Letter.


Tuesday, February 2, 2010

I Like

i Like
..that you make me smile
..that i want to go against all odds
..being near you
..hearing you laugh
..seeing that you care
..being missed by you
..your jokingly possessive moments
..our secret codes and insiders
..how i receive most if not all your attention
..without asking you do the most
..even upset i cant go without talking to you
..when i hear your ringtone my heartbeat skips
..where this is going
..where we could end
..our love for music
..that we have so much in common
..our subliminal messages

i Like You

Playing My Part

as i lay awake i realize my role in this movie
im the cushin between the ex & the next chick
the reliable sideline bitch
and because i knw my role and play my part well
i dont ever break character
and as many times as ive almost slipped
reading lines of that lead chick
catching feelings where i know i shouldnt
right before i do, i step back and fade to black
cause i know im my role in this movie
im the cushin between the ex & the next chick
the reliable sideline bitch
see... ive realized that thats why you keep me.
the problem is i know i deserve more
hell im worth better
and even you can see my greatness
but youre to timid of the outcome
i try to convince myself that time will tell
and things will work out
but lets be honest i knw my role in this movie
im the cushin between the ex & the next chick
the reliable sideline bitch