Pretending

as i lay in bed my mind starts to wander and i began to cry
how long am i supposed to pretend as if everythings alright
i cant be the strong person everyones used to seeing
the person people turn to when their down and out
who do i talk to, whose going to resue me
i feel as if everything around me is crashing
and instead of moving out the way i just stand there
hoping that God grants me the pleasure of meeting him
im tired of feeling pain i want to be loved again
i want that comfront of knowning that i wont be judge
that someone cares enough to think of me first
but what am i thinking that could never be
cause people only think of themselves
so i put on my face and go back to pretending

 
-asshole